Tonight I feel tired. Not just tired physically, but emotionally tired. Don't worry, nothing tragic has happened. It's just that feeling you get when you're so physically tired and emotionally tired that you just want to cry? It's truly almost a mini breakdown, but one that cannot be explained by any one incident. Do you know that feeling? Or, am I the only one?
I admit it, I am not one that holds back tears. Well, actually, I do try not to cry in very public places where it feels like the whole world can see. But tonight, I couldn't help it. There at church I let those tears flow. I tried to stop them, but couldn't. And the little thing I was crying about really wasn't that big of a deal. But to a physically and emotionally spent mom like me, it was. So I cried, and the whole world saw.
But now that I am in the comfort of my home and the kids are asleep and my husband is not yet home from work, I am able to reflect a bit in the quietness that is so very rare around our place these days. And I keep coming back to one of my favorite Bible verses, 1 Peter 5:6-8, which says, 'cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you.'
It's a simple verse, one that I memorized a long time ago and that has come in handy time and time again, both when comforting another who is going through hard times, or when I myself have experienced hard times. And again tonight, for my tired and weary soul, this seemingly simple verse speaks volumes. Whatever is going on in my life, I can give to God because He cares! He cares about the big, and the not so big things in our lives. I would even venture to say that those things that we call not so big are big to Him, because He cares for us in everything. That truly is a comfort and brings peace to my oh so tired soul.
I don't know why I felt led to write about my less-than-great night. Believe me, blogging was the last thing on my mind when I came home tonight. I actually just felt like crawling into bed, under my covers, and hiding until the morning came when I would be refreshed and have a whole new perspective. But I felt I needed to 'chat,' regardless of how one-sided this chatting may be. And I felt led to share my heart and my first-hand knowledge of the comfort God can provide.
If you're reading this and have also had a rough day, please cast all your cares upon Him tonight. Believe me, you'll be glad you did!